As I woke up this morning a thought crossed my mind.
“Oh menstrual cycle, is it really worth having you if I don’t think I’ll have my own children due to my belief that Jesus is coming soon?”
I mean really, is it wise to pursue the “typical American dream” of finding “Mr. Right,” settling down with him in some suburban area in a house with a big yard, white picket fence, with a golden retriever and have children with the reality of Jesus Second Advent coming so soon?
Yes, we may not know the day or the hour, but we are told to be prepared. Delineation, “be prepared” and “get prepared” are two completely different things. The former is an on-going, present-tense action while the latter is more of a command for a one-time-only, past-tense action. In my own personal circumstances, this “typical” pictured “dream” is very unwise. I believe that Jesus is coming soon. Jesus calls each one of us to serve Him by being His hands and feet to the world around us, going out baptizing everyone in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all He has taught us and commanded, as He states in the end of Matthew, also known as The Great Commission.
If I believe these to be literal commands, which I do, where then does having a cute little suburban family come into play? If my generation is the one to bring the Kingdom to Earth, by spreading the gospel to every person on this globe, where exactly in that timeframe am I supposed to quit what I am doing to move back to an English speaking country and settle down? (Now I do understand that everyone has their personal place in ministry and their own calling, I am saying that mine is not the same as the aforementioned “dream” presented above.) I won’t! There is no time in my life to dedicate to silly, nonsensical fallacies that prevent me from devoting my life to further my Savior’s Kingdom and advance the knowledge of His love for each individual on the planet! The purpose and “dream” that I feel God has placed on and burdened my heart with, is to be a foreign missionary. I want to work with people and the environment in such a way that God’s name is glorified by His Light shining through my actions to everyone and everything around me. I want to see Him coming down from the clouds. I long to hear those trumpets calling down. I long to see Jesus in the flesh! I want to be there, standing among the living remnant who see His glorious return!
This is my desire. With that knowledge in hand, where does the “American dream” fit in? I challenge you to ask the same for yourself. We are called to be in this world, not of it. If the “American dream” of personal stature, wealth and stability is of this world, what should we really pursue? Jesus says that we have eternal life right now, if we know Him. So what are doing with that? Throwing it out the window on selfish ideas of self-prosper? Or are we going to stand up and say “this sinful way of thinking: putting myself before caring for others, is wrong” and do something to change the world around us by the Love, Grace and Mercy that only comes from God? It only works if we have accepted and experienced that Love, Grace and Mercy.
So do I really need to even have a menstrual cycle with this belief of mine? I don’t think so. If it were not for a factor of health insurance, I would opt out and join the hundreds, thousands or millions of women who cannot bear their own children. Because I believe, that if one day God decides that I am ready to have someone else in my life that will spur me on in my relationship with God and will minister with me and vice versa, that miracles are possible and do happen. An operation performed by human beings could not and can not stop the God who created the entire universe from placing a child in my womb and growing it to be a healthy human being. Should that be according to His Will, when it happens I will be overjoyed and humbled at the reminder of how great and mighty my God is.
My Lord, Savior and Comforter are worth the dedication of my life’s purpose and mission to. At this point in time, as well as the near future, I don’t see how I am going to need to have children of my own to further that action. In fact I believe that it would only hinder all attempts to do so. I pray that my will and entire being may be surrendered to the One who made me, gave me life and prevented the Enemy from taking my life so many countless times.
May God’s peace be with you, His love fill you, and blessings pour out upon you as rain from a typhoon,